The Pitfalls of Idealism and Ideology

Thoughts from Steve Jellicorse

To get a perspective on what is happening culturally, the following are some observations on our current ideological divide that I trust reflects Kingdom values: 

First let’s define what an ‘ideology’ is. Merriam Webster’s says ideology is  ”a manner or the content of thinking characteristic of an individual, group, or culture; the integrated assertions, theories and aims that constitute a sociopolitical program, a systematic body of concepts especially about human life or culture”.

Ideology is not in and of itself a bad thing.  It serves as a filter to those ideas we do not accept as true and reliable.  It’s a shortcut.  It’s a checklist to broad ideas and ideals.  We prefer to grasp concepts in generalities.  However, in many aspects of life, it is in the nuanced gaps of life where we fail to understand each other and then talk past each other.  Ideological generalities exacerbate this phenomena.  We like unsophisticated thinking that demands the hard work of examining particularities.  We want clear easy contrasts, with no overlapping shades of gray.  That is the downside of any uncritically adopted ideology to which we attach ourselves.  We would rather not engage in the rigor of having to think through ideas and claims in real detail. We like dried concrete not wet cement.  Dried concrete is durable and gives us a firm foundation on which we can build our lives.  But it can be brittle and inflexible.  When stress and pressure come from unexpected directions our ideology can become brittle and fall apart.

That happens when ideology becomes an ‘ism’ as in  ‘idealism’. Idealism is inevitable when we fail to realize the limitations within any ideology.  It goes from being a framework to a calcified dogmatic immovable structure.  It gives safe haven to hubristic attitudes of superiority toward any idea that seems to clash with our tidy framework of thinking.  Tragically, we are very often  ‘aided and abetted’ in that endeavor by pathological professors, pious preachers and pernicious politicians feeding us an oversimplified radicalized view of our ideology and thus the world.   Sadly, these can be views that match all our unrecognized personal biases rooted in our unacknowledged resentments. 

This is true both on the right and the left. The right fails to acknowledge their resentment for a lack of status with the press and pop culture. The left fails to acknowledge that many of their resentments are carefully cultivated historic wounds that are continually scratched at, unable to heal. Two case-in-point examples are the riots in the Capitol in January 2021 and the city riots in the summer of 2020.  Most of those throwing bricks, assaulting policemen and engaging in violence as an expression of protest were presumably touting very different ideologies but with outcomes that were essentially similar. 

An ideologue (someone held hostage to idealism) upon reading my last statements will immediately beg to differ.  That’s because idealism makes one completely incapable of considering carefully what someone else has said.  I’m in my mid-sixties.  My ability to see shades of gray in my own ideology are positively correlated to the shades of gray in my hair. While, having an ideology may be a good thing, Idealism tends to blunt reason and thus reasonableness.

As the people of God, we have to radically deal with our own cultural confirmation biases. We can never accommodate resentment as God’s people, especially those that cause us to play the victim.  Had early believers held onto their justifiable grievances against the Roman Empire, their witness of a God of love would have been undermined. Gravitating to a socially acceptable compromise is not the Godly solution either.  Truth indeed matters.  The greatest truth however is what Jesus taught us when applied to our horizontally relationships: love your enemies!  That means that others are accepted completely and unconditionally even when disagreeable or simply wrong. Our 'correctness' on any idea never legitimizes our rejection of others who hold an incorrect view. That is the way of the world, but not the Way of Jesus. Winning arguments is not the point.  Our legitimate win comes when our enemies and even oppressors witness our kind humble responses even when we are in disagreement.  

Steve Jellicorse

Steve is a Tennessee native who loves Jesus and is passionate about discipleship and missions. Steve and his wife Brenda have four children and ten grandchildren. Steve is a gifted teacher of God's word and loves to mentor the next generation.

Henry Evans, 1760–1810

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Henry Evans, 1760–1810

Apostle of Hope

Henry Evans was a freeborn native of Virginia and preacher who laid the foundation for the first Methodist church in Fayetteville, North Carolina. When traveling to South Carolina, Henry stopped in Fayetteville and was so distressed by the spiritual state of the slave population there that he decided to move to the area and minister to the people there who at that time had not heard any preaching and were living lives completely devoid of hope.

Initially Henry was met with tremendous opposition from the white slave owners who pushed him out of the area. But Henry persisted preaching the gospel and would hold meetings in the woods. Eventually, the fruit of the gospel in the slave’s lives was such a testimony to the transformation of God’s word, that not only did the white slave owners allow Henry back into town – they began joining his meetings and encountering the Lord.

“None but Christ. Three times I have had my life in jeopardy for preaching the gospel to you. Three times I have broken the ice on the edge of the water and swum across the Cape Fear to preach the gospel to you. And now, if in my last hour I could trust to that, or at anything else but Christ crucified, for my salvation, all should be lost, and my soul perish forever.”

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Lemuel Haynes, 1753–1833

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Lemuel Haynes, 1753–1833

Patriot & Pastor

Not only was Lemuel Haynes a patriot who fought for the independence of the United States in the Revolutionary war, but he was also the first ordained black pastor in American History, the first black man to receive a degree, the first black man to pastor a congregation, the first black American to be internationally published for the writing of the first abolitionist essay: “Liberty Further Extended”, and he was also the first black American to speak boldly and publicly about the degradation of slavery and how it was in direct contradiction with our nation’s platform of freedom and liberty to all.

If the church is to prosper and mature, she will need faithful men to lead and care for her. The church will need men who are sound in doctrine, whose lives are guided by the Word of God, and who are willing to defend the truth. The church will need to hold up as its ideal those who model fidelity and love toward God, men who will pour themselves out for the benefit of the Lord’s sheep. Men of this mold are gifts to the church from her Lord. In the late 1700s the Lord did indeed give such a gift to the church”

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Phillis Wheatley, 1753-1784

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Phillis Wheatley, 1753–1784

Poet

Born in 1753 in Gamba, West Africa, Phillis was caught by slave traders who later sold her to a tailor from Boston named John Wheatley. John Wheatley’s wife, Susanna, taught Phillis how to read from the Bible and she began to study English, Latin and Greek. Phillis then began to write remarkable poetry that became famous across the world with her faith as the message of her poetic platform. Phillis wrote how salvation was not just for the white man but was available for every person. Phillis spoke the truth of God’s love for all people not from a pulpit, but by way of her pen.

Some view our sable race with scornful eye, "Their colour is a diabolic dye." Remember, Christians, Negroes, black as Cain, May be refin'd, and join th' angelic train.

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Harry Hosier, 1750–1806

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Harry Hosier, 1750–1806

Circuit Preacher & Evangelist

Born in Fayetteville, NC during the Revolutionary War, Harry began to travel when he was around 30 years old as a methodist preacher. Though illiterate, he would memorize entire passages of scripture. He was such a gifted preacher that he was considered the greatest orator in the entire nation. He preached to black and white congregations alike and led many to Jesus.

Harry preached in the meeting house to more than one thousand people[…] I have never seen so tender a meeting in this town before, for a general weeping ran through the assembly, especially while Harry gave an exhortation.

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February: Black Church History / Honoring Lives of The Saints

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Black CHurch History

In our nation, we honor the month of February as Black History Month – a time we collectively recognize the contributions made by African-Americans and their central role in U.S. history. As a church, Antioch Raleigh feels a calling to become further educated in church history, a subject that is a general weak point in western Christianity. SO we thought February would be the perfect launch point for us to honor the spiritual mothers and fathers that contended for much of the revelation, freedom, and breakthrough that we as the modern body of Christ get to experience.

This month we are honoring the African American spiritual giants who, compelled by incredible faith, led radical lives of courage.

Join us on our journey by checking out our daily stories on Instagram and Facebook or here on our blog. Links to further reading will be found in each post.

Epiphany Week Two: Enlightened

Thoughts on the second week of Epiphany from Leslie Medlin

Epiphany comes from the Greek verb that means ‘to cause to appear’ or ‘to bring to light.’ The word can refer to the manifestation of a deity or to an experience of sudden insight or revelation…so Epiphany is literally a season of enlightenment.
— Bobby Gross, "Living the Christian Year"

During week two of Epiphany, the scripture readings are typically focused on the Baptism of Jesus, when he was finally revealed as God's son and thus his ministry began. We read those passages, and, if we will allow them to be absorbed into our spirits in a fresh way, we are enlightened to who He is! And who He is changes where we are even nowin this moment, in this week you find yourself, however right or random it feels. Then as we are changed, we bear witness to what we have seen, learned, and experienced. Gross puts it this way,

“Herein lies a spiritual paradox: not only do we say what we see, we also see as we say. Epiphany, then, is a time to both inhabit the story and to tell the story, for in the telling itself, we are further enlightened.”

If you feel led, take some time this week and read Mark's account of Jesus' baptism — in chapter 1. Then spend time asking God to bring these events to life inside you again. You might ask yourself these two things as you process: 1) How am I moved to respond to him? 2) How can we follow John’s example and bear witness to what we’ve seen?

This week, I've personally been asking God to change my perspective on my own lack — to help take my weaknesses and not let them sink me into the depths of self-judgement and condemnation, but rather embrace them as a vehicle to unveil His strength as my "boat paddles” wading through the winding waters of life. Reading Jesus' baptism story has reminded me that as partakers of Jesus' divine nature, we, too, are beloved, approved, and empowered by the Father!

Join me in this closing Epiphany prayer over us all. And I’m believing that as we pray it will truly enlighten and expand our hearts and perspectives:

Gracious Father, thank you for the fulfilled promise of your Son and the assurance of your Spirit that is with me, really with me. Thank you for embracing me as Your beloved son and daughter, and for Your grace that approves me and empowers me to walk forward into this year and your will. Amen.

2020: Our Year In Review

When we look back on this year as a church, the word that comes to mind is "INCREASE." We have seen a great amount of increase in so many areas, specifically in the areas of Prayer, Community, Family, Discipleship, Development, and Servant Leadership. Keep reading to learn more about what the Lord has been doing at Antioch Raleigh in 2020!

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PRAYER

In 2020 we saw an increased passion for prayer nurtured in our church demonstrated through regular prayer gatherings and initiatives. When Covid-19 shut downs began, we rallied together and began meeting daily for virtual prayer. Once we moved into our new church location, we embraced the simplicity of meeting outside and used it as an opportunity to prayer walk the surrounding neighborhoods for several weeks. May our prayer culture continue to develop and strengthen in 2021!

Antioch Raleigh Community

COMMUNITY

In 2020 we saw growth within our church community and we began to invest further in our local community. When the world shut-down, our community moved online and since then we have seen new LifeGroups form (including an exclusively virtual LG) and new ministries develop. We have been able to partner with other local ministries, including Your Choice Pregnancy, Wake County Food Security and other local churches. We have had the honor of serving meals to our local community since April and are still distributing food bi-weekly to those who are food insecure due to Covid. This Christmas we rallied as a church and with the leading of our ADS we were able to provide meals and gifts for 60 families in our local community. May we continue to grow in our friendships as a church body and may we become a greater blessing to those around us in 2021!

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FAMILY

In 2020 we saw our family grow. Young couples got married, a handful of babies were born, and families are growing through foster / adoption. We have had the honor to welcome some of our missionaries from overseas that have returned for their homestay. And our church body has been blessed by new brothers and sisters joining our fellowship this year. May our families continue to be blessed and expand in 2021! May we further learn how to resemble a healthy church family by honoring and loving one another and may our passion for Jesus lead us into deeper relationships with one another in 2021!

Antioch Raleigh Discipleship

Discipleship

In 2020 we saw an increased focus on discipleship relationships and in spite of (or because of) such an unusual year, there has been a deepening in the relationships and life-on-life discipleship among our international and college students. Our college ministry had one of our most fruitful semesters yet in terms of seeing people learn how to follow Jesus, seeing the wayward return to fellowship several students making the decision to follow Jesus for the first time in their lives. We have also seen our youth group grow and gather weekly, learning how to develop into disciples who make disciples; eagerly learning how they can mature into men and women who will change the world. May we continue to be dedicated disciples who make disciples in 2021!

Antioch Raleigh Development

Development

In 2020 our church structure was flipped on its head and we suddenly had a high need for online communications which resulted in the development of two new teams: The Communications Department and The Production Team. As a church we spent a season corporately developing our love for the word through the Study of Luke series. In the fall we launched our '20–'21 Antioch Discipleship School with a focus on development – what is the calling and ministry the Lord has for each student and how to become best equipped and deployed into it. Antioch Kids developed through the restructuring of the classrooms and the implementation of a new, awesome curriculum. As a church we have pressed into being further developed into a free people through the teachings of our Delivered series and by training several people in Restoring The Foundations freedom ministry. And we have implemented quarterly trainings for all of our LifeGroup leaders so that they feel further equipped and supported as they continue to facilitate their weekly gatherings. May we continue to develop into healthy, empowered individuals who have the wisdom and ability to further develop God's Kingdom in 2021!

Antioch Raleigh Servant Leadership

Servant Leadership

In 2020, there was a lot of church-wide shifting and change, from our church location to our church structure (with months of weekly changes becoming the norm). This resulted in a much higher need for "all hands on deck" and man, did our folks rise to the occasion! From our first ever Antioch work days to the increase of people who have joined serve teams, we have seen so many servant leaders step up this year. It has been awesome to see the fruit of so many people raising their hand and serving our body in new ways including (just to name a few): worship nights, advent readings, a clean facility to gather in, and an increase in the amount of quality care and teaching our kids are receiving on Sunday mornings. May we continue to grow further into the resemblance of Jesus, the ultimate servant leader, in 2021 – paying attention to the needs of those around us and eager to insert ourselves to help meet them!

So we ask you this – as you reflect on this past year and as you ask God for His vision for your life in 2021, please also take the time to ask Him how you can press into the broader vision. What does it mean, through your life and in this next year, to further Love God, Love Others, and Make Disciples? Because our hope is that as a collective group of individuals we would all be moving from glory to glory, further into His calling for us as one, unified body. 

 

The Power of The Blessing

The following is the full, written story and notes from Steve’s sermon on “The Power of The Blessing”. Click here to download as a pdf.


Now the LORD had said to Abram: “Get out of your country, from your family and from your father’s house, to a land that I will show you. I will make you a great nation; I will bless you and make your name great; and you shall be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and I will curse him who curses you; and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.
— Gen 12:1-3 NKJV

JACOB’S PURSUIT

The old man was reminiscing, if that’s what pondering the entirety of one’s life can be called.  Paramount among his memories was the focus of his intense lifelong pursuit.  It was a longing for and fulfillment of those monumental life altering episodes called the ‘Blessing’. The intensity of his longing was still there but he now had a different perspective. Something was different. It wasn’t simply about the fact that he was about to issue his final blessings.  Something had expanded in his understanding. He somehow knew that the deterministic power of these experiences was more significant than he’d originally imagined.  As incomprehensible as it might be, the impact of verbal declarations of an individual person could reverberate throughout generations to come.  Was there more to this idea of ‘blessing’ than anyone comprehended?   Musing to himself he said ‘I believe the effects of the blessing can be multiplied.

Intuitively, he understood the constraints that had hedged in his parents, Isaac and Rebecca. It dawned on him that they viewed the ‘blessing’ one dimensionally.  If one son was ordained to receive a blessing and the other must be excluded.  Conceivably the ritual of the Blessing had never been as linear or limited as his parents thought.  He wondered if they had not fully understood the unlimited potential of this singular act of ‘Blessing’.  

Jacob had spent his entire life focused and even obsessed on this one inexplicable phenomenon. It ultimately proceeded from Yahweh, the God of his parents and grandparents Abraham and Sarah.  The aspect of the blessing that held his attention now was how Yahweh had entrusted the declaration of blessing through the agency of people. Jacob loved how God identified Himself as the God of Abraham and Isaac, his Granddad and Dad. He’d noticed that the very first thing God did after making man and women, was to bless them. That had to be significant as God’s very first action after He’d created humanity.  This was a personal God of families.  Jacob noticed those kinds of details about Yahweh.  Jacob had also observed that from an early age, his athletic rugged twin brother had shown almost no interest in Yahweh or anything spiritual for that matter.  Esau possessed an almost complete indifference to his granddad’s stories of encounters with Yahweh.  

Abraham would retell the first time he heard the Voice summoning him to leave his home.  What kind of Voice would captivate a 75-year-old man to leave his familial clan to wander around the land of strangers in tents with his aging wife?  Later, Abraham mystified Jacob with the story about the day he sat in his tent in the Mediterranean heat when Yahweh along with 2 angels sat down for dinner with his grandparents. That was the day God blessed the aging couple again promising them a son.  His grandma had laughed when Yahweh told them that in one year, they’d have a son.  The Lord had heard Sarah’s giggle and evidently found humor in her amusement.  Thus, to commemorate God’s sense of humor, Abraham and Sarah agreed to call their son—Isaac--which means “son of my laughter”.  Yahweh too had a sense of humor, it seems.  Later, Jacob sat horrified and then relieved when Abraham retold the story of how Yahweh had provided a lamb after testing Abraham’s faith by asking him to sacrifice Isaac. 

Jacob had wondered why,  with all his time hunting and living outdoors, Esau had not developed any curiosity about the voice of Yahweh.  Not that Jacob knew anything about that either.  Jacob had never heard God’s voice but at least he wanted to.  Jacob had always felt inferior to his older twin.  While Esau hunted, Jacob worked on his culinary skills.  He remembered the day his famished brother returned from an unsuccessful hunt.  With an enormous appetite for tasty food, but little appetite for the things of God, Jacob was able to induce a trade of Esau’s birth right for a bowl his specialty, red stew.

All this was going through Jacob’s head as he contemplated his final interaction with his 12 sons. Indeed, there had been this dilemma about which son to bless--echoing from Isaac and Rebecca’s logic and passed down from his grandfather Abraham.   In the case of his uncle Ishmael without question there was only one of 2 outcomes.  One was either a son of the promise or a son of the flesh.  Only his father Isaac could be the son of the promise.  There was no place for more than one son to receive the blessing.    

Then there was that almost disastrous deception he’d committed against his brother Esau.  He had used deception to fool his old and blind father Isaac into giving him the blessing ordinarily reserved for the eldest son.  He and Esau were twins, with Esau the older twin.  On the day of their birth Rebecca had prophesied that the older would serve the younger.  Then, instead of trusting in the prophetic word, she had conspired with her favorite younger son to deceive her husband so he would release the blessing on Jacob, not Esau.  Despite not trusting in Yahweh to fulfill His promise, Rebecca intervened.  In the economy of God, they brought about God’s plan.  Ironically however, any time man fulfills God’s wishes out of human connivance, control, domination or treachery, dire consequences are inevitable.  Esau was livid, erupting into murderous threats against Jacob.  Apparently, Esau had come to appreciate that the blessing had immeasurable weight on his future. He knew at least that much even if his hunger to know Yahweh was minimal.  

Jacob now wondered why he hungered for God and his brother did not. It wasn’t because he was better, he knew that much.  Actually, maybe that explained his hunger. He was utterly acquainted with how wretched he could be, yet somehow the power of a father’s blessing had altered his base inclinations of manipulation and deceit. He knew that the blessing prohibited his willingness to cheat his scheming and crooked father-in-law who’d lied to him for 20 years.

Finally, he remembered the night he had wrestled all night with the Angel of the Lord.  He was determined to not let go until he received a blessing which is exactly what the Angel of the Lord did.  He blessed him by changing his name from Jacob which means ‘Deceiver’ to Israel which means ‘Prince of God’ or ‘One who wrestles with God’  

Instantly, he could envision the blessing he was contemplating as a pattern that encompassed all of his children and even his grandchildren.  No longer did he feel the weight of constraint that only one favored son could be blessed.   The blessing would combine elements of positive outcomes on one hand and “helpfully constraining” proclamations to stand as a guardian against the corrupt temptations on the other hand.  The power of the blessing reflects heaven’s buoyant ability to see unreliable people through their prophetic destiny.  It also generates the capability to cancel negative inclinations in one’s descendants.  As Israel peered into the future he could  also see One who was to come. .   The LORD GOD, was revealing the unfolding dynamic flood of generational momentum available in the prophetic blessing ceremony.  These declarations were not mere words.  No, this was more than platitudes.  This was men operating in the creative power of heaven unleashing God’s order of authority from parent to child. 

He had 12 boys, 7 of them were with his wife Leah, 2 with his wife Rachel.  The others were with the handmaidens of his wives. To say he’d created a dysfunctional family was an understatement, but in his old age he was determined to make lasting changes. Like his ancestors he’d practiced favoritism to the point he had provoked his older sons into nearly the destroying the family.  They’d barely avoided fratricide by selling his ‘favored son’ Joseph into slavery. Regardless of his parental blunder, Yahweh had not only redeemed his son Joseph, but his entire family.  

So here he was at the end of his days in Egypt.  Yet, here in a foreign land, Yahweh had been completely faithful in keeping His promises and blessings (and sense of humor) to his Grandfather Abraham, his father Isaac, and now to Israel and his sons and grandsons. More important than anything Israel, too had heard the Voice many times. Now he was hearing it again.  

Why couldn’t ALL of these children fall under the blessing.  He’d already made mistakes by showing favoritism.  His son, Joseph  had asked Israel to bless both of his boys, Manasseh and Ephraim.   Then he began to see the future.  It struck him like a bolt what he had to do.  Regardless of the mistakes as a father and a husband he had made, Yahweh was giving him one last chance to alter the trajectory of his legacy. 

This Child he had seen in the future was a Child of enormous promise, as if He were Yahweh Himself.  This One would rule the nation that would be called by his name, Israel.  But His rule would be even Greater and more significant.  This Child would eventually rule the world.  The irony was this Son would be the eldest brother in some mystical way,  but there would be a younger brother too…or was it younger brothers and sisters.  Regardless this royal Eldest brother would serve his younger siblings, just as Esau had been destined to serve his weaker less powerful younger brother. This Elder brother, would voluntarily surrender everything to serve his flawed, weak, selfish and manipulative younger brethren.  

Somehow Israel began to get that his entire life was a picture of a future brotherhood of humans who would have a Perfect Older Brother willing to sacrifice everything for his undeserving younger brothers.  He understood paradox he had in the meaning of his new name Israel.  In one instance, he saw that the one who wrestles or contends with God, can also become the one who is a Prince with God.  

He began to see a future where the ill-deserving and the undeserving through no merit of their own would receive the full benefits of one who was all deserving and worthy.  He began to see that the sons of his handmaids were as legitimate as those of his lawful wives.  He knew that his blessing reverberate into a blessing for his sons.  His purpose, his destiny was to be fulfilled in the next few days right before his departure from this earth.  He finally understood that his obsession with the Blessing was really not his own but it had always been Yahweh’s.  Yahweh had been maneuvering Israel to the place where now he could bless not one son but all 12.  They all could become ‘favored sons’.  

Some were more flawed than the others but make no mistake about it they were all flawed.  But Yahweh was not put off by Jacob nor was he put off by the mistakes of his dad, Isaac and granddad, Abraham. In fact, their flaws were on exhibit to every generation going forward because every sin and imperfection was discussed and retold.  There was nothing that Yahweh could not change with those who would in faith cooperate with Him. Israel trembled as he now knew it had everything to do with that event on Mt. Moriah so long ago when Yahweh provided his own lamb.  Someday it would be a true Elder Brother who would be sacrificed. 

Then Israel stretched out his right hand and laid it on Ephraim’s head, who was the younger, and his left hand on Manasseh’s head, guiding his hands knowingly, for Manasseh was the firstborn. And he blessed Joseph, and said:

“God, before whom my fathers Abraham and Isaac walked,

The God who has fed me all my life long to this day,

The Angel who has redeemed me from all evil,

Bless the lads;

Let my name be named upon them,

And the name of my fathers Abraham and Isaac;

And let them grow into a multitude in the midst of the earth.”

Now when Joseph saw that his father laid his right hand on the head of Ephraim, it displeased him; so he took hold of his father’s hand to remove it from Ephraim’s head to Manasseh’s head. And Joseph said to his father, “Not so, my father, for this one is the firstborn; put your right hand on his head.”

But his father refused and said, “I know, my son, I know. He also shall become a people, and he also shall be great; but truly his younger brother shall be greater than he, and his descendants shall become a multitude of nations.”

So he blessed them that day, saying, “By you Israel will bless, saying, ‘May God make you as Ephraim and as Manasseh!’ ” And thus he set Ephraim before Manasseh. Gen 48:14-20 NKJV

Israel blessed his 12 Son’s. Genesis 49   (By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of the sons of Joseph, and worshiped, leaning on the top of his staff.  Hebrew 11:21)

  1. According their gifts and personality

    1. Know your Child

    2. Know their strengths

    3. Know their weakness

    4. Never ever compare children to each other, or others 

  2. According to the interpretation of Life from God’s perspective

    1. Fruitfulness vs success

    2. Time and Tests

  3. According to their parents own awareness and walk with God

    1. Your own encounters with God

    2. You own dept of hunger, knowledge and trust in God. 

And the LORD spoke to Moses, saying: “Speak to Aaron and his sons, saying, ‘This is the way you shall bless the children of Israel. Say to them:

“The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;

The LORD lift up His countenance upon you,

And give you peace.”

“So they shall put My name on the children of Israel, and I will bless them.” Number 6:23-27 NKJV

 

A BLESSING FOR THE CHILDREN IN YOUR LIFE

For Girls: May God make you like Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel and Leah.

“The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;

The LORD lift up His countenance upon you,

And give you peace.” ’(Numbers 6:22-26 NKJV)

For Boys: May God make you like Ephraim and Manasseh

“The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;

The LORD lift up His countenance upon you,

And give you peace.” ’(Numbers 6:22-26 NKJV)



Bowing My Knees to the Lord Jesus Christ

The following are sermon notes from last week’s teaching “Bowing My Knees to the Lord Jesus Christ” by Steve Jellicorse from our current series: Submitting to the Lordship of Jesus. You can hear the full sermon here.

Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.  (Philippians 2:9-11 NKJV)

For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone.  8  If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living.   You, then, why do you judge your brother or sister? Or why do you treat them with contempt? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat.  11  It is written: “‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue will acknowledge God.’ So then, each of us will give an account of ourselves to God. (Romans 14:7-12 NIV)

I bow the knee of My Opinions to the Lordship of Jesus Christ:

a) For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. (2 Corinthians 4:5 NIV)

b) There is a way that seems right to a man, But its end is the way of death. (Proverbs 14:1 NKJV)

c) In those days there was no king in Israel; everyone did what was right in his own eyes. (Judges 21:21 NKJV)

I bow the knee of My Security to the Lordship of Jesus Christ:

a)  For with You is the fountain of life; In Your light we see light. (Psalms 36:9 NKJV)

b) Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. (Psalms 23:4 ESV)

I bow the knee of my relationships to the Lordship of Jesus Christ:

a) The fear of man brings a snare, But whoever trusts in the LORD shall be safe. (Proverbs 29:25 NKJV)

b) “Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven” (Matthew 5:11-12 NKJV)

c) “We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children—open wide your hearts also. Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial ? Or what does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?  16  What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: “I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people.” Therefore, “Come out Bowing My Knees to the Lord Jesus Christ-Notes from them and be separate, says the Lord. Touch no unclean thing and I will receive you.”   And, “I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty.” (2 Corinthians 6:12-18 NIV)

Steve Jellicorse

Steve is a Tennessee native who loves Jesus and is passionate about discipleship and missions. Steve and his wife Brenda have four children and ten grandchildren. Steve is a gifted teacher of God's word and loves to mentor the next generation.

We will not lose heart.

This excerpt was written by Niki H back in April at the beginning of the Covid shut-downs; the truth of this word remains even more relevant today. Church, do not fall asleep on your watch. Do not mistake following a movement for being a part of a movement. Do not sell the your birth right to be a carrier of change to any organization or party. We have been given the mantel and authority to bring forth the kingdom of love and light into the dark and lost world. - Jessie J


It’s time for the Church to wake up. To live like a Bride fully alive walking in the power and love of her Beloved. I believe this could be our finest hour. 

I’m reminded of John 11:4, when Jesus, speaking of Lazarus, says, “this illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” I really believe this virus and the fear of the hour, meant and seeking to destroy us, will be the very thing that ushers us into our divine destiny. I in no way want to suggest that this thing is from God but I do know a God who delights in redeeming even the darkest of days and who brilliantly uses every bad and evil intention to miraculously bring forth life.  

A famous quote in reference to the United States after the attack on Pearl Harbor during WWII states, “I fear all we have done is to awaken a sleeping giant and fill him with a terrible resolve.” Though unknown (at least by me) whether this was actually said or just a quote from a film, I believe it captured the times well and I believe it is a prophetic declaration that will well capture the times we are in now as well. I believe this is the Church’s hour to fully wake up and show the glory and hope of her Beloved to a world that desperately needs it. 

Just as an attack on U.S. soil awakened a country to get actively involved in the war, I believe this crisis is awakening a Bride to fight. To not merely be bystanders that, while appalled at the atrocities of war and filled with sympathies in our words, remain immobile.

May we now be moved to be physically engaged and actively involved in the fight. May we be moved to the point of willingness to sacrifice – a laying down of our very lives. If ever there were a call to arms in our day, now is the time. Let us not let this moment pass us by. May we not be ones that find ourselves wondering where we were when the war was waging all around us, but instead, may we be mobilized and fully given to the fight. And as the weeks continue on, may we not lose heart or become weary of doing good. May we daily be faithful to take up arms and fully engage. May the Church not simply send good wishes to a hurting and fearful world but may we be the sleeping giant now awakened and filled with resolve-now ready to be physically engaged. Ready to sacrifice. Willing to shed blood and tears.  

May this be the catalyst that awakens the Church of Christ. Though once rocked to sleep by our own comfort and distance, unaware of our own strength and authority, the Church is waking up and moving to be nameless, faceless, lover-soldiers of King Jesus. May this be the last straw that pushes us to be fully mobilized in our calling and break the back of the enemy. 

May this time not be remembered primarily by the spread of disease and the shutdown of nations, but by the awakening of a world to the powerful hope of Jesus and the unstoppable love of a Father. 

We are awake. We are in it for the long haul. We will not lose heart. We will never give up. We will arise as the glorious Bride of Christ and step into our divine destiny, storming the gates of hell with a hope that’s secure and a love that breaks chains, moves mountains and renders darkness powerless. We will not waste this hour and look back with regret. We will never be the same.

Spiritual Leadership Principles of Nehemiah (11–23)

Continued from our post last week…

11. Spiritual Leaders Never exercise authority without being under authority. Nehemiah 2:6 – Letters from the King and to the other governors and those who control resources.  Pap Singleton took the sliver of freedom granted in the Emancipation Proclamation and the army of Nashville. 

12. Spiritual Leaders get up in the middle of the night. They pray about and ponder their assignment from the Lord in the middle of the night.  Nehemiah 2:12 ‘I set out in the middle of the night’

13. Spiritual Leaders have a secret life with the Lord that is shared by a few trusted friends.  Nehemiah 2: 12

14. Spiritual Leaders don’t deny problems. The gate and walls were broken. Though they don’t deny the problems they focus on the solutions. 

15. Spiritual Leaders obtain their strategies from personal reconnaissance and not just hearsay and rumor.  Nehemiah 2:11-16

16. Spiritual Leaders partner with the people they are leading; they don’t subordinate them.  We vs they. Nehemiah 2:17

17. Spiritual leaders envision those who have failed at building and war and turn them into builders who win wars.  Nehemiah 3 & 4

18. Spiritual Leaders take the responsibilities of ownership for something that belongs to another so that it may eventually belong to them. 

  • David Killed Goliath for Saul the King.  Before he killed the giant, he killed a lion and a bear while tending his father’s flock.  He took on the responsibility of ownership of something that would never be his and belonged to someone else. He took responsibility like those sheep were his sheep and eventually God let him shepherd His entire nation. 

  • John 10:11-13   Ownership “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. The hired hand is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep. So, when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep.

  • You take care of what you own.  Powerful leaders own their responsibilities and they look for those who assume ownership to give more away. 

19. Spiritual Leaders start out as leaders of little (cupbearer) before becoming a leader of much you have to be a leader in little.  “One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much. Luke 16:10 

20. Spiritual Leaders metabolize the enemy’s opposition into fuel for advancement.  Nehemiah 2:19-20, Nehemiah 4, 5 

21. Spiritual Leaders learn from other successful leaders. Nehemiah 3:1

  • Nehemiah appoints Eliashib who was the High Priest. Eliashib had been a critical leader in building of the temple. 

  • Eliashib is the first one mentioned who began to rebuild the Sheep Gate. 

  • He who walks with wisemen will be wise, but the companion to fools will suffer harm. Prov 13:20   

  • If you hang out with fools you become a fool. Show me your friends and I will show you your future.  

  • When the character of a man is not clear, look at his friends (Japanese Proverb)

  • Some people bring happiness where they go.  Some people bring happiness whenever they go.

  • Every person you know carries a bucket of water and a can of gasoline.  Associate with those who know how to drown your negativity and fears and feeds the fire of your calling and your destiny, rather than those who drown you hope and feed the fire of your negativity. 

22. Spiritual Leaders make voluntary personal and financial sacrifices for those they serve. Nehemiah 5:14-15

23. Spiritual Leaders are willing to confront…even their old and good friends not just their enemies, regardless of the consequences. Nehemiah 13:1-14 

  • Compromise with the enemy is never to be tolerated even when it a good friend.  

  • Remove the enemy and keep the friend if possible. 

  • Spiritual Leaders stay unified (Nehemiah and Ezra) in order to create revival Nehemiah 8:1-18

Steve Jellicorse

Steve is a Tennessee native who loves Jesus and is passionate about discipleship and missions. Steve and his wife Brenda have four children and ten grandchildren. Steve is a gifted teacher of God's word and loves to mentor the next generation.

Spiritual Leadership Principles of Nehemiah (1–10)

It is amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit.
— Harry S. Truman Leadership
  1. Spiritual Leaders receive a weight of something from the Lord. Nehemiah 1:4  (I wept and mourned)

  2. Spiritual Leaders don’t judge God’s judgments. 

  3. Spiritual Leaders want to actually experience a Godly life by experience, not just by hearing about it.

  4. Spiritual Leaders truly see people and pay attention to those that are around them. 

  5. Spiritual Leaders become owners of problems through prayer, they don’t complain about problems. 75 years vs 52 days. Jesus demonstrated that identifying a problem and solving it is what servants do. (John 13)

  6. Spiritual Leaders never use Manipulation or Domination they only influence. Influence comes from character and vision (God’s vision not the leader’s).  I am controlled by the Agape of God:  “For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this, that one died for all, therefore all died.” 2 Corinthians 5:14

  7. Spiritual Leaders never forget their true identity.  They know that you don’t get your identity from who they work for (Artexerexes) or where you live Babylon but an intangible spiritual heritage.  Nehemiah was not a Babylonian or a Persian, He was a Jew who had promises from God.

  8. Spiritual Leaders Pray and their Prayers always start with humility. Humility identifies with those who have failed.  Jesus was counted among the transgressors. And they crucified two outlaws with him, one on his right and one on his left.

  9. Spiritual Leaders are willing to pursue God purpose with indirect and indistinct summons from God (mourning, weight, burden, sorrow of heart….not a clear ‘ personal word from the Lord’.  A general word that the Lord that He would return his people to Jerusalem after 70 years was specific enough for Nehemiah to zealously pursue God’s purposes. (Jeremiah 25 & Daniel 9)

  10. Spiritual Leaders are Authentic. Nehemiah risked death to reveal his pain over Jerusalem. Maturity takes longer than we think, obedience accelerates maturity not knowledge. We are tempted to “seem” rather than to “be”.  To “ be” is the mark of mature authenticity. You are not changed by simply seeing His glory but seeing it with an unveiled face. 

    a) True community come out of common worship of Jesus not common understanding of doctrine.  (John 4:19-26)

    b) Often, we use our agreement over certain doctrine as a veil and hide behind them. A veils hide you from others. Veils distort your vision of others and them of you. (2 Cor 3:12-18)

    c) Authenticity replaces veils with vulnerability.

    d) Jesus’ body was completely unveiled on the cross.

    e) Nakedness (vulnerability) is what our cross looks like to others.

    f) Veils that hides you from others hides others to you, so neither of you is seen.

    g) Unveiled encounters with others often reveals Jesus in them too!

    h) On some days, the lesson you learn from the Lord will comes only through others so removing our veils is expedient.

Steve Jellicorse

Steve is a Tennessee native who loves Jesus and is passionate about discipleship and missions. Steve and his wife Brenda have four children and ten grandchildren. Steve is a gifted teacher of God's word and loves to mentor the next generation.

Trustworthy

Times of cultural sea change, chaos, ambiguity and natural disaster are all opportunities for the believer to reconsider the genuine source of safety and security. 

The king is not saved by a mighty army; A warrior is not delivered by great strength. A horse is a false hope for victory; Nor does it deliver anyone by its great strength. Psalm 33:16-17

The modern world has sophisticated systems of wealth management, insurance, education, medical technology and science.  These all combine to make the world a much better and safer place to live. Much good is accomplished. They reflect our immense capacity as creators made in the image of the Creator. The subtle deception that lodges its way into our psyche is that these creations are trustworthy of our absolute faith. We are and should be impressed with humanity’s accomplishments.  They are micro-reflections of our origin. Humans, the pinnacle of creation, overthrew our connection to the Creator, with independent behavior and choices. That introduced a deluge of chaos, disaster and uncertainty into creation. Consequently, anything we can invent can be destroyed by other renegade segments of God’s creation.  

The devil’s gateway to earth was our unwitting complicity with His schemes.   In the Lord’s benevolent patience, He allows rebel outposts for a season. Thus, humanity persistent compliance with the devil’s dictates called ‘sin’, reverberates into all creation destabilizing everything from the weather to microbes. The existence of this uneasy, (and generally unacknowledged by humanity) alliance between man and the devil perpetuates this sabotage of God’s creation.  God’s, intention for earth was to be beneficent to humanity, but instead can turn hostile and deadly. Hence, we suffer from pestilence, plagues, natural disaster, and inexplicable terror. Even our own creations turn deadly: splitting the atom and DDT.  

Alas, harnessing creation’s enormous power, is an insufficient source of true security and safety.  We place our trust in the One who created it all, the One who is reservoir of life, and the One who delivers us from our own folly is worthy of our unqualified trust.  Everything else will prove unreliable. 

LeaderMan vs. Servant Leader

The following article was written by Brant Hanson on his blog in 2008. You can find the original article here.

We don't need any more of "LeaderMan".  What we need are servant leaders, men and women who are gifted for leadership, whom people naturally follow, who point those people toward Jesus alone, our Teacher.

Granted, as always, I may not know what I'm talking about.  But below are some off-the-top-of-the-head attempts at distinguishing one from the other.

Servant Leader:  Has something to say

LeaderMan:  Wants a platform on which to say something

LeaderMan:  You almost feel you know his family, because he's your Leader

Servant Leader:  You allow him to influence you, because you know his family

LeaderMan: Wants you to know he's a Leader

Servant Leader:  You're not sure he knows he's a leader

LeaderMan:  Loves the idea of the Gospel, and the idea of The Church

Servant Leader: Loves God and the actual individual people God brings across his path

LeaderMan:  A great speaker, but self-described as, "Not really a people person."

Servant Leader:  Makes himself a people person

LeaderMan:  Helps you find where God is leading you in his organization

Servant Leader:  Helps you find where God is leading you

LeaderMan:  Gets together with you to talk about his vision

Servant Leader:  Just gets together with you

LeaderMan:  Resents "sheep stealing"

Servant Leader:  Doesn't get the "stealing" part, since he doesn't own anyone to begin with

LeaderMan:  Wants the right people on the bus

Servant Leader:  Wants to find the right bus for you, and sit next to you on it

Servant Leader:  Shows you his whole heart

LeaderMan:  Shows you a flow chart

LeaderMan:  A visionary who knows what the future looks like

Servant Leader:  Knows what your kitchen looks like

LeaderMan:  If it's worth doing, it worth doing with excellence

Servant Leader:  Not exactly sure how to even calculate "worth doing"

LeaderMan:  Talks about confronting one another in love

Servant Leader:  Actually confronts you in love

LeaderMan:  Impressed by success and successful people

Servant Leader:  Impressed by faithfulness

LeaderMan:  Invests time in you, if you are "key people"

Servant Leader:  Wastes time with you

LeaderMan:  Reveals sins of his past

Servant Leader:  Reveals sins of his present

LeaderMan:  Gives you things to do

Servant Leader:  Gives you freedom

LeaderMan:  Leads because of official position

Servant Leader:  Leads in spite of position

LeaderMan:  Deep down, threatened by other Leaders

Servant Leader:  Has nothing to lose

From Disappointment to Perception

Most of us have to get advanced degrees in ‘disappointment’ to correctly perceive the Lord.  Disappointment empties us of our personal vanities and false expectations.’

Then their eyes were opened, and they recognized him, and he disappeared from their sight. They asked each other, “Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?” Luke 24: 31-32

We can easily identify with the disciples walking with Jesus after the His resurrection on the road to Emmaus.  Like them, we have our own ideas and ambitions that keep us from perceiving Jesus or His Kingdom realities, even we He clearly states them.  Our default focus is on what is temporary. His focus is on the eternal.  When we experience loss, we over value it, remaining oblivious to eternal gains we could have received had we ‘taken up our cross’.  All we see are our preconceived dreams evaporating. 

Repeatedly, Jesus warned the disciples of the jarring death He was to suffer.   Obviously their ‘visions of grandeur’ in His new government were dashed.  Jesus saw redemption of the universe within one temporary pain filled event call the cross. They saw nothing but defeat and loss of their ambitions for Him and them.  He saw permanent victory and humanity’s redemption. 

When we are in a state of ‘disappointment’ over dashed, destroyed and decimated illusionary dreams, we are tempted to reject any voice that fails to justify our pain and suffering.  To our chagrin, these voices see everything differently.  They even annoy us. The Lord loves to hide in plain sight, explaining what was evident all along. There is often a prolonged delay before we see Jesus or what he meant.  Regrettably our false expectations are born out of vain ambition, misguided enthusiasm, youthful foolishness, and simply not knowing the ‘ways’ of God.  They leave us feeling betrayed, abandoned and disappointed when they don’t work out.  Disappointment then leads to disillusionment.  Disillusionment has two pathways from which to choose: either hopeful reality or skeptical unbelief.  

I dare not gloss over the depth and pain of disappointment.  We do indeed feel real loss.  We might even feel it comes from the Lord betraying us, but that too is vanity.  The pain actually comes from hanging on to what is false as it decays.  The lofty and vain imaginations to which we cling have only one solution: death. So, we have a choice; to die slowly or quickly.  One choice is to take up our cross and die quickly and quietly. There other is to make the self-referential choice that leads to a long and painful death, often taking years.  Yes, the loss and suffering are real but long painful losses are usually self-inflicted. It’s like the young person who knew they shouldn’t marry that very bad character but did anyway.  For any number of reasons, they proceed, despite clear warnings from Jesus not to. After their divorce 15 years later, you will hear them blaming God for all their life’s misfortunes.  

Much of our suffering comes from tenaciously holding onto to false narratives, illusionary reality and our rights.  Holding on to these idols is ‘death’ itself.  When we see Jesus’ kind intentions  toward us, we still might experience anxiety.  We have anxiety of having to make a choice.   Yet when we chose to follow Him, the Lord replaces our illusions, schemes and attitudes with His eternally enduring perspective.  A benchmark of spiritual maturity is how quickly we ‘take up our cross’.  Most of the time this comes from embracing a new value system, not a piece of wood with splinters.  The cross is a new value system.  We appraise our life and the circumstances through a new standard.  The heart of that standard is that Jesus is first and nothing else comes close. Jesus never disappoints us. But many of us experience disappointment with Jesus because we refuse to believe Jesus’ narrative of what’s He has invited us to take up-which really was a cross that means to kill our value systems. 

The “Millennium Bridge” Problem

When the Millennium Bridge opened in London, pedestrian traffic began to cause a slight sway. As each individual began adjusting their gait to compensate for this motion, it unwittingly began synchronizing their input to the resonance of the bridge. So then the sway of the bridge began to take on a life of its own, so to speak.

I feel like a lot of human problems work this way.

Our individual walk might not intend to interact with anyone else’s. “To each his own,” right? But somehow it ends up working together to interact with a flawed environment so that now we all unwittingly begin acting in concert towards some diabolical end. It takes on a life of its own. Even if a few individuals try to stand still to stop feeding the tumult, it carries us along with it anyway. 

It’d be great if we had the sense to walk to a different resonance despite the tumult. And maybe enough others would begin to walk with us so that together we’d begin to tamp down on the way it controls us and makes us keep feeding it. 

But I feel like we’ve been fed a naïve view of what freedom really is. The Tumult has every reason to keep us thinking we’re free to walk however we’d like, because this is the very thing that enslaves and conforms us to serve its ends. 

The Lord calls us to walk freely and together in a different way so that his kingdom, not the world’s, begins to hold sway.

To Love the Lord is to Wait on Him

But as it is written: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” (1 Corinthians 2:9 )

Paul presents a fresh look at Isaiah’s description of waiting on the Lord.  He equates ‘waiting on’ the Lord as the same thing as ‘loving’ the Lord.  How many of us, when asked how we can demonstrate that we ‘love’ the Lord, would immediately respond that we ‘wait’ for Him?  It’s profoundly significant that the apostle Paul considered them one and the same.  Obviously, he considered a lifestyle of contemplative attentive waiting on God as a supreme demonstration of our love toward God.  So why is ‘waiting’ on the Lord such a critically important habit of the mature believer?  

A mentor once said that “the will of God is often easier to understand, than His timing”.  To get that, we must wait in His Presence.  The synchronization of our internal clocks to eternity transpire as we wait. We become aware of the vast "nowness" of God.  His graceful unflappable demeanor is imparted to us as we marinate in His peace and His imperturbable Sovereignty.  The immediate clamor of external circumstance is jettisoned as their incessantly urgent demands for our attention gets silenced. Our ‘timetables’ expand into eternity's perspective.  No longer are anxiety, fear, impatience or discontent able to dominate and invade all my waking thoughts.  I become distracted by the disproportionally massive Presence of God.  Waiting on God calibrates my environment regardless of the circumstances, into a place of tranquility, joy and patience. 

So much of our impatience results from the inverse of waiting on God: waiting on the world, ourselves or even others. Transference of His Character and distribution of His gifts results from abiding in His Presence which requires disciplined focus on the Lord, His Word, and the Holy Spirit.  It bears the attentiveness of a hunter awaiting his prey.  It bears the passion of a lover anticipating the return of his lover. This is God's process.  It's an initial step.  It is an essential step.  It is a step that must be frequently returned to in our lives for a healthy spiritual lifestyle.  It becomes a spiritual habit and discipline we understand and from which we never depart. 

When we don't wait on the Lord the heart allows pride, arrogance, impatience, haste, and temperamental fits.  A general atmospheric hum of low voyage anxiety, and anger emanates around us in our private self.  This hum is like a warning beacon to those around you like a flashing sign saying, "step back from the car".  We become unapproachable, testy, and reactive.  Our self-love then becomes thin as we move from God's acceptance of us, to a performance-based mentality.  Waiting on the Lord is like oxygen to an air-deprived fire fighter; water to a desert refugee.  When we access heavens gates by waiting on the Lord, relief floods our being. We are satisfied.  Then an exquisite exchange takes places.  My stuff or His.  (Isaiah 40:31).  My feeble strength for a strength that will not dissipate.  One discovers newfound capabilities that are impossible otherwise to accomplish.  Practicing active waiting on God is one of the advanced disciplines in spiritual sustainability.  

For since the beginning of the world men have not heard nor perceived by the ear, nor has the eye seen any God besides You, who acts for the one who waits for Him. (Isaiah 64:4)